William Lyons diary

William ____________
Toledo Ohio
Toledo Ohio 1902 from the Toledo State Hospital May the 8th;

Thursday
Aprial the 2d 1902 from the Toledo State Hospital, weather cloudy and cold, not in the best of health, feeling ____________, __________ stile cold figner, internaly reed cheeks bowls don't move freely wraing, don't flow scarcely any too speak of, want exercise, get better curculazion bad feeling, belly is verry large from caustiveness, both dir is hale wile poizen by hipnotism, they breed many difrent kind of diseazess, all for two day

William _____________

Aprial the 4th, 1902 i William ________, penn this note, and too the best of my knowledge and belief is the trouth, it is now nearing the hours of 4 oclock on the after noon of this the 4th day of the month of Aprial, i penn these lines hopeing their perusial by yourself will bee for my benni-fit, and that you will dew me justice i have no fears, we in our ward have just returned from a walk around the asy-lum bouleveard and i feel quite warn out with fatugue, hands swelled quite bad, and leggs akes tired feeling crost the chest streches and mean, don't don't think it is for good too bee used night and day by these people, drawing their poizen by hipnotic influence, but think it is condu-cive, too ones ill health and a fineal eurley death and it savors, of secrete specalation in humman life, which by law is forbiden, and any people practousing it would be crim-minels and amenable too the laws of our country last knight these people hipnotised me too sleep, and while a slepe in a hipnotic state they insulted me by using me in lew of a woman, and gave me three ssamms, caused from an over abun-dance of poizen drawn from these people by hipnotism, and no it has bin going on year in an year out how on earth i live able too stand all this abuse is one of the misterey, i honestly believe they all get money for my horrable mis-use i have no word too add then i will close, this note, i know that if these people can make me draw their poizen by hipnotism and thus live their purson, and thansferring their poizen from their sistum, in two mine why they can use they graand and trees watter and attmansfere the wind will take it away as well as too up more me, and in using me they prove a conspiracy against my life and honor while held in helpless confinement in in this instuhtsion, in this free country, an these people allso prove this is se-cret specalation in humman life, these breath adders are the worst of the lot of these kind of hipnotics for they continuel make one inhale poizen air from every part of their system wit every breath that one draws hopeing that you will read this note and act on it for my bennifit i close with respect
William ____________

Monday May the 19th 1902 too Mr; Dr; Lobey of the Toledo State Hospital, Sir i have reasons in believeing that there is a conspireicy against my life and honor and the life and honor of my famley, by partys connected with this asylum so dedly secret in their acttiones and deturmend in their pur-poses that one can not lay their damable acts on any one purson, but must condem the whole lot of them for their de-turmination too posess thim selfs, in abundance of this worlds goods, by takeing the honor and life, of their fel-low man, and converting it in to manur, through the prosess of extortsion theft and sacrafice and by the use of the wimmen, cvohabeting with man, and in fact, it's the detur-mination of this gang for too use every purson, in this asylum, as long as there is a dollar in their misuse, and too hold them in helpless confinement under the heading of insaneity for that especal purpose, by their low lived lies, too their disstruction and in many casess the dis-truction of their famleys take my case, for an elustration for instance, here i have bin 11 years in confinement in this Asylum for noother reason than that i had a famley qurrel and in a moment of extreem pashion i slapped my wife and knocked her down, for winking at hour famley Doctor something i thought was not just right and took offence then the ring that is conknected with this instution that feeds this great canibal of the state of Ohio, stepped in and i was braught before the probate court and convicted of having too pashunate a temper, and was braught out here too cool off so the judge told me at the time of my conviction, and thus one more was added too the long list of slaves that are incarserated in this asylum too help feed this great cannibal, and, perhaps some of my famley are used in like maner, while i am held here in helpless confinement not able too lift a hand in their defence, or gieve them one dollar for maintenance, gragualy looseing my life, by the abuse that ireceive, continualy from these people, by hipnotism, posessed and practised by these people on every helpless purson in this instutin and on me in particular, though i call it lunitic hipnotism because these partys can use inanimate subjects, as well as anamate sugjects hence the lunacy not content with the use, if myself by hipno-tism, in the too draw their lowlived diseasess and in this way keeping them all healthy in this ward and a good many out siders, they allso feed me adulterated food I have heard from sevural partys and am inclined too its belief that the partys in this instutsion that are hired hire for too protect the honor and health of these pattants, at a fixed sallrey, double their wagges, by outrageing the peo-ple, and charging at the rate of $5,00 for every atempt, they the hired help have atempted it with me from 3 tow 5 times a knight for nearly 2 years, but i circumvented them all i possably could, from the actual outrage by tyeing my head up with a double hankerchief as long as my breath would permit and when i could not stand this nowlonger i begain too barkade my door after i was locked in my room at knight, so I could not besurprised in my sleep and out-raged, whiy i would not have so vile an act happen too my-self for the price of this asylum converted intoo gold money and paid on the spot; and alow them too make an at-tempt, and i think that all of the partys eather men orwimmen connected with this gang of knight prowlers that commit shuch horrable crimes for a living, and toomake choyce members of the gang rich by their low lived crimes, ought too bee prossicuted or convicted and if found guilty, hung and in this all honest people are of my opinion about my being kept in the ward under lock and key is something i can not understand, i hav allways behaved my self never breaking any of their rools never commiting any crimes of any kind, dew the bigest part of the work about the ward and have prooved in a general way that the confinement in with, these patants was inguring my health and breedig a disease that cannot be cured, and in a little while will become cronic, that if i had more liberty such a thing could not happen, and yet with every thing pointing towards my distruction, by the aforesaid conspireing gang of black leggs, i can not gett the small favor, of a prvlage of the grounds too keep me away part of the time from the people, so that my health would bee restoried, and i could gain my liberty in consequence it is probley because im not a cath-loic and on that acount why i have bin so horrably abused, it has made me quite suspisious of your self, though purhapps you are not all to blaime, i have passed 11 years of my life in this instutsion, and in the long years of confinement, thare has not bin one moment, of perfect safty for my self as reguards my life or honor, or for the life or honor of any one that tried too take my part, against this organization of low lived crimnials i believe i am at the presant time in the U.S. of America and in one of her state instutsions, for the insane, and iam not insane, where people are braught too bee cured of some kind of dis-eases and i am getting diseases Through my whole system, where people are brought sometimes for law breaking under the heding of insainity, and i have not broke the law in any way, but stick strictly too the laws dissisions as i am a law abideing citican, and wonte bee a law breaker about this idea of people beeing insaine for what they think or for what they say, is out of reason for new thoughts and new idieas are every persons rights, in this country and their the advancement, of siance in every way, its for that right that our fore fathers emigrated too this country, and founded a new home, for their rights of opinions, and i aze one of their decendance, don't think i am craisey for hav-ing idias that were benificial for me and for every one elce that uses them, and have made money by them while i have bin held in helpless confinement, and some of these slave holding boodlers receieved praise and money for what i knew or for my knowladge, now i wish my discharge from a place, where every moment of the time i have passed as one of its patants has bin too dangerous life and honor, hopeing that you will give me my discharge on these grounds here in _____________ i remain William _______________ __________________ __________ ___________, Toledo, Lucast, Co: Ohio

i rite this with the intensions of some day, in the near fewture, of making it public and in so doing expose one of the worst conspiricys, that war ever anyones privilage or misfortune, too disclose and hope that my fellow citisens will concider the disclosures, which i am riting here that its, for their bennifit that i take all this trouble, as much as for my own bennifit it is my disire two you through this wourld on the square, using every one right and treet-ing every one with respect, and have tried ever too live up too those principles, as i am an law abideing, man, it was not so very disigreable for me too acompliche i am at the presant time in the Toledo, State Hospital for the insane in m building, ward one riting in my room, riting this down in this book, and on sunday after noon, and i cincerely hope that I may have the good fortune, too give it too some one that will, diliver it too the right parttys, and they will know what too doo with it, as all i rite, here, will bee the whole trouth and nothing but the trouth, too the best of my knowlage, so help my god, , i was born of honest but poor parrents, and honorable too extreems, who the criminal stain of dishonor had never darkened their whole life. i was a boy near the age of 7 years when, my fortune ever took our, famley, in the shape of war, and took my father, it left my mother destitute, with 5 small children and an older brother around the age of or near the age of 16 years, with my self third from the oldest being near the age of seven yea[rs] years, i remember we lived in the country, on a farm, that had, a small log house on it, and the farm was nearly all woods it i remember right, and situated on what was at that time called the old angola road, a bout 7 miles from the city limits, so i understood it was very hard for mother too keep the wolf from, the door, enkumbered with all of us children so some of us was obliged too find situations or something too doo, too help my crippled mother in hour suport, as i remember my oldest Brother excepting work as a hostler, from a man or famley, by the name of driver who lived amile nearer the city lim-mits, and kept a tavern i doo not remember the amount of money he got for his work but i doo remember that he brought it all home and gave it too my mother too help suport us, he was a good principled boy and we all had a great love for him, i don't remember if or not my oldest sister sought employment, from, away form home, yet there is a dim remberance of something of the kind, transpireing yet i could not positively say, at any rate wee all got a long quite well for the space of six months or more when my mother thought that if wee could, gett too some place where it was more thickly settled, she might find some kind of employment, for us children that would bee a little, help, toowards our suport so my Mother and my oldest Brother talked it over, and came too the conclution that wee would move too the city so wee pulled up stakes and moved, if my recoletions are coreck, it was the summer of 1862 that wee moved too the city of Toledo form the farm on the south plank, too, a house on summit street, calld the old Unuion hall at the corner of summit, and wallnut streets, it was a brown too storried building with a store front, my brother got work at one of the leeding furms, that delt or made it a business of deeling in ice the firms name was St, john and company, he work there for a year or more, helped Mother pay the rent and provide for us childrens wants and my oldest sister sis went out for work as a nurce girl, if i am not mistaken yet my recolections are somewhat dim on that point, and i can not give a corect answer, or file it on paper, i recolect of my going too the lagrange street School and of having a fight with a boy by the name of john young, the quarrel begain by him pushing me intoo the ditch, and i went for him, i remembber of having a pair of copper toed shoes or boots, i found they were good too kick with so i went for him and began too kick him with my cop-per toed boots, untill he howled like a wolk, and bled quite badly from his posstierior, where the boots landed every time i kicked him, he then ran away, we had a hard time too live as it was with my Brother and sister working, and my Mother dooing fine sewing for the nabors and the shopps, yet there was more trouble, for us comeing that caused depper poverty, and great sorrow for us all, it was my oldest Brother enlistment, in the 108th Ohio Vollentiers Infentry regment if i remember rightly, it was in the fall of of 63 and he would not have him 17 years old before the next augest of the following year, of 1864 it was hart breaking too see the parting of my Brother, an dMother i know little about it, as i was too young yet i saw some of it, and skipped out, for it was too much for me too stand, a young as i was, we moved shortly after that transpired too some friends of hours, that lived at the foot of Chess-nut Street, and i think that my brother helped too move our famley and gett us all as comfortable as our meens would permit and then left with his regment for the war, wee had the good fortune too have a cow that wee had brought from the farm and that helped us too live, she was a red white fased cow and gave a large quantity of rich milk, i may bee rong about what place we moved from the old uneion hall too first, yet it appears too me that i am right, but i may bee mistaken, i was so young and full of play that what hap-pened in the famley, as reguards the place we lived, i did not pay much attension too and cared less it did not amount too much with me it was one, of the too places, eather kings or at the foot of chessnut street, and as i have puit it at the foot of chessnut street first i will lett it re-main so, i believe we had a few chickens that helped us too gett along and brought in quite a little money att differ-ent, times, we were having a hard time too take care of our cow, i remember untill finely mother got her pastured, the pasture was behind the wood lawn semiterry and it was my duty too goo after here every knight and and take her out every morning too the pasture, i was in the habbit of takeing my boy friend with me, for sweet company sake, and too chase the spooks away, one night wee were late, in go-ing after her and it was dark when we got too the semiterry and as we had too goo throught the semiterry, too gett too the pasture, too lett the cow out we were in doubt as too its, habits, but after due concideration, we finealy plucked up curage, sufficant too make a start, we were not advance much more than half way through the grounds, when there arows before us something white and silant but moveing forward, yet apearantly swaying form one side of the road too the other, we were then in doubt wheather too move forward or make a retreet for home, but as i did not want too bee a cowered, i persuaded, my friend too goo on with me, too the pasture, and we finealy started, again, but had not got far in the semiterry before, we were brought to a stand still by the saem object that first atracted out attension, by its gost like apearance and movements, we stood still shivering form fright, not know-ing what too doo, go forward or turn back, we were debating on it when wee happen too glance sharply in the direction from where the ghostly object was comeing, and wee seen that it was makeing more speedy time in our direction and was close upon us, well now i never had such a feeling in my short life before, it was like, one seeing a horrable sight, that would make him deathly sick, yet at the same time scaire him near too death i stood in front of my friend yet had a strong hold on him and as the thing ad-vanced toowards us, i kept, saying too my boy frieng, don't bee afraid, it wont hurt you it cannot, bee no gost, i am not afraid, of gosts bee you, hee would not answer and while i was trying too bee brave, and help him too bee brave, the thing kep comeing toowards us, it finealy got clost up to us i should judge about 20 feet or less when it gave a great blatt or bawl well my friend tumbled head over heals, and i run for dear life and did not stop till i reach home, my boy companion hollered for me too wait for him, but i would not wait he reach home about 1/2 our after i did all out of breath and near scart too death, in the meen time the cow had come home, the man that had the pas-ture, had lett here out, and she had come home here self, we took the bow out too the pasture the next morning and in gowing through the cemitarry too the pasture wee met our gost of the night before, it was a white curham calf, with too red ears it had got out of the pasture, some way, and was strooling through the, semitarry Wee did not stay very long at my friends house, at the foot of Chessnut Street, but moved away in the space of time, i will say 2 or 3 months, then we moved too another place quite discont form where we were liveing, it was a house, in manhatten, or now North Toledo sittuated, near the bank on the old canal, just above the Manhatten corner called the King house, we were not there a great while when my Father came home from the army, having got a furlow, for 3 months i beleve, after his three months was up he went back too his regment, wee lived quite comfortable for a while after he went back, for hee had left us quite well provided, as reguards our house-hold wants yet hard times came again for us and wee sufffered many priveations, amoung many of the troubles that, we had in our famley was one that worryed us Chiel-ren, it was my Mother was takeing sick a bed, and in the corse of a few days a child was born too our famley, a lit-tle boy he brought happyness too our famley, and his pre-sants drove the hevvy clouds away that was hanging over us, and made the sun shine bright once more for us, a bereved famley, we named the little fillow Archer or George Archer ________, there may bee a dispute about the place of our manhatten domicile, and the place at the foot of Chessnut street reguarding the place we lived at first, but it seems too me that i have got it recorded right, simply because i can not remember of us having any baby, when wee lived at the foot of chessnut street, at any rate Archer was born in the old wash King house it was a queer old house i remem-ber , built of loggs and then shetted and sideing puit on over the loggs, wi had not bin long at the old place, after Father had gon back the second time too the war, and our new baby was born, when the ladie3s of the nabor hood called too see the new wonder, and finding that wee were not verry well off in this worlds goods helped Mother, a great deal by giving here sewing too doo, it was a great help, my sister i believe went too the city, and got work, too bring home from the talor shops they were mens pants too make, and that work helped us too live, about this time the ladies of the city of Toledo formed a soseitty for the protection of soldiers wives, and too assist them if the famleys were neady or in want of comforts of daly use for this famley they asisted my mother or our famley, in a num-ber of ways and one that i remember was, that she got $3,00 a week in money, from their society and did different kind of sewing, for it, but wheather she did the work or did not, she received the $3,00 aweek all the same, the rever-ance this noble society of ladies was held in by the poor folks was the deepest love and respect by all of the poor soldiers wives, and widdows, of the many ladies that be-longed too this society thare was one that was particularly kind, and made it her special business too see too the wants of all the soldiers wives, by making daly prilgre-mages too all those that she could, and those that were, in direct nead, of assistance, why i mention he in particular, was that she was verry kind tow our famley and too Mother, it was her that gave my Mother sewing, and allso gave my-self employment, at odd jobs such as running of earents, and doeing odd jobs around her house, she informed my Mother that she might send one of us children, at or too the post office building, as they had a business office there in a couple of rooms on the second floor and that they gave checks on stores for 3 three dollars, as three dollars in cash, too all those soldiers wives that they had found diserving, and had puit their names on a list, so if ma would send some one of us on each saturday, of every week, that they would give Mother, three dollars a week, so Mother, chose me as her messenger, and it wasmy dutty too go too the post office once a week, after the three dol-lars, and i faithfully atinded too my business, i remember one instance, tho that i will never forgett, and it will allways bee in my memory it was a cold stormy day and mother was thinking about not sinding, me, but after suming up the welth there was in the house she found it nesseary so, i was bundled up with scarf and ear covers, mittens and over coat, and started from our house too the post office a distance of three miles and a half, i walked all the way there and got the 3 dollars and started home, in the nabor-hood of half past too oclock in the after noon and reached home about four oclock, or near four oclock nearly per-rished with the cold it was a verry stormy day snowing, and blowing, and it must have bin in the neaborhood of 15 de-grees below zerrow, as i stept intoo the house, and got, part of the snow off my clouths my Mother asked me for the 3 dollars that i had got, at the post office and, i made the effort, of going through my pocketts, for the mony, too give it too her, when i found, that i did not have it too give her, i had lost the 3 dollars for search my pocketts as i might, i could not find the mony Mother says too me, why willie i believer you have lost the money and you dis-erve a good whipping for being so careless, now you go right back, the way you came, and see if you can find it, so i puit on my scarfs bundeled my self up again and was ready for my second trip too the city, when, mother think-ing that two would be better than one too search for the money, told my oldest sister too gow with me and help search throughly for the money she was rather reluctant about going out, in the storm, but Mother told her the nessesity of our want of the money, so after due concidera-tion, wee started and out wee walked a long the streets, toowards the postoffice wee searched with our eyes all along the street and side walk in search of the money, but oculd no where find it, where could it have bin lost was a punacler too boath of us wee had got, clear too the post officce, and was comeing back home, empty handed, when turning the corner off of madison street ontoo summit street and had got a crost the road too the north, west corner of madison and summit, streets, when i happened too glance down, and too wards, the lamp post that was standing there at the junction of the too streets, and there i saw a rapped a round the post clost too the sidewalk, my three dollar bill, i went too the lamp post, and carefully worked it off of the lamp post, and puit it in my mitten and puit the mitten on my hand, so that i would, have hold of it all of the time, and wee went on our way rejoicing oue our good luck in finding the money we finealy reach home quite a bit after dark worn out with out long tramp and search for the money, yet were well paid for our long tramp, in seeing the joy in the finding of the money had brought too us all, i believe that wee onely staid that one winter in the old king house, though i am not possitive, and on the follow sumer, we moved from Manhatten, from what is Called North Toledo now, too the other end of the city in the 5th, ward too a little house, the wimmens aid society had got for us, and there we stayed untill after the close of the war, we lived quite comfortable there, as we had our cow, and quite a number of good chickens, & my Mother took in sewing, and working, in a small, way, and my oldest sister got work learning the millners trade, she i believe went away too another city too complete her trade, and while there was adopted by the famley, the folks that that ran the busi-ness, i doo not remember the names of the people but i doo remember the name of the place, theat she went too, it was a little town called Jones Ville, she stayed there 3 or 4, month, or more and then returned home, and went too work in another place, she did quite well i believe, though i can not remember being so young and full of play, my youngest Sister, my youngest brother and my self, went too the 5th ward school, and dureing vacations wee all helped too pro-vide for our house hold wants, my sister helping my mother, about the sewing and washing, and doeing the house wokd and running of earants for the nabors, while myself had got work in the stove factory of Trobridge and Co, situated on the other side of the river, where now is the O.G. freight yeard, i received $1,25 cents a day for my labor i worked there for three or too vacations and part of the 3d, wee all gave or earnings too our Mother and she dispensed of them, four our bennifit, and other sorce of income, that helped too keep the wolf from the door, was my Mother re-ceived, by post, office, or through six months from my Fa-ther puiting our work all togeather and investing it for out suport, in the best way that Mother could, mad it suport us, quite comfortable so that we were never in nead want for the neasisearrys of every day life, yet at times wer in quite hard straits on acount of the high price of provissions, and cloaths, thus the years passed on in a hum drum fashion, some times we had abundance, sometimes, a near nothing, untill finealy the war, closed and Father came home i am a little ahead of my statements here in scribed, and so i will, puit it down here, my Brother that had enlisted in the army in the 108th, O,V,I, had him ta-keing prisnor by the rebbles in the 3d or 4th, fight, that his regment was engaged in, i think that it was at the bat-tle of the wilderness, and puit in andersonVille, prison, he was in prison nine long months in andersonville, prison, before he was prorolled, and transferred along with some others of the soldiers, home on a three months furlow, it was a joyfull supprise too us all and especaly so for my Mother as wee were not expecting him and because of her great love for him, my brother Deloss, was greatly changed i my self could, hardly, recognize him, but after he had bin at home for a time, his looks improved so well that, we all, had no trouble in recognizeing him, prison life had a had a verry bad efect on him, fisicaly, and he was a sight for too give one the horrows, he claimed, that their food, i mean the prisoners, food was composed of cornmeal, ground cobbs and all and that one pint was surved out for mess too each, man 3 times a day, dry corn meal and all, that they had too cook it with was, durrty watter, that they dipped up from a crick that ran through the stockaide, and that the crick was the receiver of all the fillth form the pris-oners persons, and all other reffuce of the prison, and that from the efects of this diett, different diseassed broke out amoung the soldiers, such as gang green scurvy, difrent kind of fevors, raged among the prisoners, and they were dieing at the rate of 3 or 4 a day, he told us that some of them would fight for their meal, too the death, and it became on every day occurance seeing someone of them lyeing ded from, fighting for their corn meal which kepped them from starveing too death, and that they wre dieing from scurvy, and from gangreen every day, and too make their prison still worse, they the prison officials had constructed, a number of stakes driven intoo the ground around the inside of the stockade and 10 ft, away from the main fence and called the ded line, and that if any soldier or prisoner was caught in the between this dead line and the main fence, he was shot by the guards, that walked around, on a platform built near the top of the stockade, and watched the prisoners night and day, and were told too shoot them down the reason of the officials, for this last move, was that before the dead line was built, that some of the prisoners had escaped through the crick, under the stockade wall, they had one or too ryetts, the prisoners banded togeather, and made a rush for the gates, when the grub wagon came in, in the morning with their days rations, but was not verry secussfull, and some of them, got killed, and none of them gained their liberty if i am corect, in this scribing, at one end of the stockade was a lot of low shedds, or stalls, the same, as those built for cattle, with out the feed _____, and in there llittle manger was thrown straw, and that too times, a blanket, and sometimes nothing, that the bunks became so filthy, they were full of bedbugs, and they became full of graybacks, or boddy lice, that they had no meens of getting reid of them, that they swarmed all over one, like, ants on an aunt hill, that they farely subsisted on human flesh, he told us the trying time he had too keep, the few boys in his regment from fighting and killing each other, through their sufferings, in pris-ons and for their food, which was barely sufficient too sustain life, and i know that Deloss spoke the trooth, for he was allways a peece maker, he told us of him, and his pardner, or bunk companion, of making up or composeing songs, too drive away sorrow, and too make their prison companions feel more contented with their hard lot and i will rite down in this book, one of the many songs that they composed, song of the southern prison life rittern and composed and sang, by Deloss _____ and his prison compan-ion, while in anderson vill prison Dear friends and fellows soldiers brave, come listen too my song, about the rebbles prisons, and their soldiering their so long the reched state and hardships great, no one can understand but those, that have endured that life in diccys sunny land, were poor, servivers were often tried, by many a threat and blame for too dissert our noble cause and join the rebble tribe, tho fane wee were to live the place, we lett them understand, wee rather, die than disgrace our flag, in dic-cys sunny land
This was the daly bill of faire, in that a sescesh salloon, no sugar tea or coffie there, at morning night or noon but a pint of meal ground cobbs and all was served too every man, for the want of fire wee ete it raw, in diccys sunny land, yet days and weeks and Months, roalled on, the days and week untolde, untill that happy day arived when wee were all parrooled, wee landed at anappoliss, a reched looking land, but glad too bee alive and free from dickeys land, how like a dreem those days now seem, all dressed in union blue, as wee regaine our wasted strength all dressed in union blue, the debt wee oh our bitter foe, shall not have long too stand weil, pay it with a vengance soon, in dickeys sunny land, i believe that there was another verce, but its bin so long ago since, i repeated the words of the song, that i can not remember,, if there was or not, but, as it is, it is verry complete, i recall too my mind, an insedent, that transpired, while my Brother Deloss was in AndersonVille prison that proved a conspiracy, by the offi-cials of the prison, against every soldier, that they thought would survive his imprisonment, it was when they were parolleing the prisoners, they was called up in line, and in spected by the prison officials, as too their phisi-call condission, and every one that looked able too stand more punishment, or was looking fairly healthy, was turned back in tow the pen and every one that was two unhealth, looking and they thought could not survive their jurney home, wer called intwo line counted off and their names taken down and, then they takeing before the, commanding General, their names complection hight, and what regment they belonged too, filed off in two companys, and exchanged for prisoners of their soldiers that we had in our prisons, my brother was called back too times in too the prison stockade but the third time that he was called he happened to have a friend in one of the prison oficals, who seeing his condission, took holt of his arm, and puit him through, the gate, just in time too save him from being called back, and he then ran a head, and mingled with the rest of the parolled prisoners, and escaped being called back the third time, the prison life here brings all, that my Brother went through in anderson ville, prison in as much, that they doo not discharge any healthy people here, in this asylum they waitt untill they are shure that the patants can not, gett over the abuse they ----- not keep them any longer then they discharge them, they geet home live a while, then die, from the abuse that they receive in the Toledo State Hospi-tal when my Brother arived home he was completely covered with gray backs, and his hair nearly dropped all out of his head, from scurvey, he stayed around the house or home, nearly all of the time that he was out on a furlow went down town occasinally, and ran of earants for Mother, we were a happy famley during his short vacation, i believe that he stayed too weeks over time, for his captin sent him a letter, for him too join his regment, he bid us all a loving fairwell, and went away to join his regment, and wee never, saw him after, it was an eternal fair well it, is i believe, a mistake of mine in the fore part, of this book in recording, the date of my Brothers enlistment, i puit it down, as being, the summer of 62, but after doo considera-tion, i believe that it, was the summer of 63 yet wont bee possitive, so the years passed, in decided contentment, when, finaly Father came home from the armey with his phisical health good, excepting his eye sight which was partly distroyed, the doctors said that it would not bee but a short time before he would bee toetaly blind as the octive nerve was distroyed he had not bin home but a short time, when he went to consult a doctor reguarding his eye and the doctor told him the same as the armey physsion had told him, hee was quite discouraged for a while, but finealy through mallencolly aside, and thought gods will bee done, he could not work at his trade when he came home on acount of his eyes, being so bad, soo he aplyed for and got, a posision, in a lumber yard, too tend too the horses, but before he, went too work for a man named scotty, build-ing a large sailing vessel or scow, when he got, through with that job of work, he went, too work for his cozen Mr, Willcox, that keeps shipchandler store on watter street, building another sailing vessel or scow, he helped too build 2 or 3 others, and then tried sailing for a lively hood sailing the scow that he had built, and named the scow lumisey, named by his cozen Mt, Willcox, he finealy got so bling that he had too through up the command of his vessel, and seek some other employment, it was then that he, got the employment in the lumber yard, of sage and inc, graw takeing care of horses, as barn boss of which i spoke in these preveious lines, i know that he had a hard time of doeing his work, yet his employers thought a great deel of him, for he did his work well yet so tereabley troubled with his eyes, they raised his salrie from 14 shillens a day, two 2 dollars a day and finealy too 2 1/4 dollars and one quarter, a day, he at times was detalled too, hall ex-try loads of lumber, when they had more than the teemsters, could doo, so he was called, too hall the town orders, i remember of him driving a large brown or red horse that he had doctored up that had bin sent, down from the com-panypinerier up in michigan they claimed that the horse was vishious and they wre compelled too destroy his eyesight, he then worked well, so well that, they near worked him too death, and he was skin and bones, when he was brought down here too their lumber yards, so father doctored him up, and got him well, and when, completely well drove him around too diliver town orders, the people that knew my Father, jollyed him because of him self being blind or nearly so, and driving a blind horse, he was a wonderfull, large horse, being where in good condission the hevyest horse in the yard, weighing 2,100 pounds and something over, my Fa-ther finealy had too quit work, on account of his eyes hav-ing too get up so early in the morning that it was still dark and he could not see his way too work, too or three times in going too his work he had run in too fences and trees, he allso ran intwo the corner of the house and nocked himself down and was badly injured, so he through up his work, alltwogeather, he went down town one day and met one of his old friends, and got employment from him it was working on the farm of Jim Coles, he was too run the 2 farms, doo the plowing sewing, and atend too the stock while, jim Cole, did the selling of the produce, he first ----- out too build a large barn, and when that was complete he did the overseeing of the farm work, and at the salrey of ten dollars a week, he worked too the Cole place, for a long time, i doo not quite remember, how long a time but i think it was 2 years My Father was a great mechanic having learned and worked at quite a number of them, i will here puit, in riteing the number of different trades that he knew and had served time too learn he knew every thing about a farm, for he was raised on a farm and there on the farm he learned too weve yarn, knit stockens learn too cut fit and make his own Cloaths, and too tan the hide of cat-tle, and cut and fit his own shoes and boots, in his home labor learning how, too work at 4 different trades, at the age of 17 or 18 years, he went with his father too learn th plastering, stone mayson and brick layers trade as his fa-ther was a mayson contractor, and building constructor, his father worked with his cozen in a ship yard, belonging, too them or was their father and my father went with them and learned the trade of ship carver, he learned the trade of millright, and was a good engineer, boath fire, and cival engineer and one time in his his younger, life was employed on the rail road, as constructor and after the road bed was built, was employed, as genral supertendant of all repairs and all constructions, or vesturely genral master machanic, at $100, one hundred dollars, a month and all his expences, were paid the rail road company however i was not too rite my fathers life of buisness, but my own, and how i was in-carcerated in this toledo state hospital for insaine, so i best begin again and fullfill my agreement i worked at di-verse jobs, in vacation, or untill i quit school, which was the second year after i had passed through the ward school building, and was going too the high School i became posessed with the idea that i did not nead any more school-ing, and that i knew esaly more than the teachers could teach me, so one Monday morning while i was on my way too school, a sneeking disire took posession of me too goo a buming i walked on untill i reached the old, canal bridge, that crossed the old canal on madison st. the thought, came too me but under that bridge was anice place too hide my books so i went down the bank and walked under the bridge, on the end too wards summit st. and shoved my books way up under, the platform, and between the bank, as fare as i could gett them, and then came out from under the bridge, and up an too the street again, well i went buming for three or fore weeks before my father or my Mother found it out yet they could not make me go too school, and more, or or my Father did not caire so it was no use for mother too try and make me goo, yet she pleaded with me quite hard too make me goo but i would not heed her, yet knowing that she was right, in her opinion of the matter reguards my going, shortly after i quit school, my Father got me employment at the lumber yard where he was working at the time, talleying lumber, worked, there for one week or 6 days, when on a saturday father drew my pay and received 9 dollars, along with his pay Father then took me down town after he re-ceived the money and bought me a derbie hat, for 8 dollars and some other things nesiseary for me too make a sonday toliet on sunday morning he had a qurrel with my oldest sister and as Father was verry passenate with an ungovern-able temper i was watching for squalls which was shure too come when any of us talk back at him or too him, and my sister Rose was in the habbit of talking back when angry, the squall did come as i expected, father walked up too my sister when her back was twowards him, and grabbed her by the hair of the head, and commenced too pull the hair out, of her head at the same time dragging her down too the floor, i was standing by the door, ready for what might happen, i said that, if he manage too gett her down on the floor, that he would kick her too death, and knowing Fa-thers ungovernable temper when he had bin drinking i picked up a chair that was used for too sit the baby over the thunder vessel, and when Father was turned around, in his tussel with my sister, and in a posision so i was shure that i would not strike her i grabbed the stool by one legg, whirled it too or three times around my head, and lett it fly it went strait for dads head, and struck him fairely on the side of the head, he lett go of my sister and stagered against the wall, i then skipped out doors, and wached the percedeings, the firs thing that Father did after righting himself from the efects of the blow that he had received, was too look for my new hat, and finding it he took it in his hands, twisting it all out of shape, then throwing it on the floor, stomped on it Calling through the door, too me as he was distroying my hat in words like these, there damm, you that's youre pay, for takeing youre sisters part, and if i catch you i will give you the same the hat was completely ruined i left home that day and wnet down too iron ville, and got work at a stave mill that, was situated there i got $1,50 one dollar and 50 cents a day for wheeling out barrel heading and after it was sawed and pileing it up too dry i stayed there a week or two, when some one of the famley came too look for me, but i did not see them, i then went over on the west side of the river, too my aunts and staid there a while when, father came down too plaster my aunts house i then went home, i will here state that my Father was nearly blind when he, did the plastering on my aunts house, he allso did the plastering of our, house, and when so blind that he could hardly gett around with out assistance, took, a contract, of building quite a number, of charcoal kills, they were built in the shape of a round flat cone, and laid up in brick and cement morter, and plastered plastered in side and out side with a small opening on one side for egress, or ingress, they were built too burn wood intwo charcoal too furnish fewel for the pig iron foundry, as it was quite a big contract, and quite a distance from home, father thout it would bee bet-ter too move down there, so he could gett too his work handy me or Mother, and Father dicided, in favor of moveing, we finealy sold our house where we were living in the 5th ward and puiting all of our furniture in ship shape for moveing, we all went down too iron ville in the first, lead load, and on the river in a verry large canoe that we carved and had named the old peerabe, its, length was 30 ft, 4ft, wide, and 2 ½ ft, high, we went down the river, in her, with the whole famley the first load, and moved in the little new house, belonging too the iron oar furnace Com-pany we then went and got the rest of our house hold fur-nishings and settled down, then Father went too work build-ing the charcoal kills and recementing the old ones as fast as he got throught with or completed one, the company would, pille the finished kille feel of wood, and set it one fire when it got too burning good they smother it or stop the draft then it or the kill would smoak fearfully, and as the kills were all built clost togeather it was all-most impossible too work near them on account of the smoke, it was verry bad for, Fathers eyes, and allmost impossible for him too see where too go, or what too doo, even in clear day light, as he was nearly blind and the excessive amount of smoke made it worse, he finaly was compelled too quit the work on acount of his eye sight, it was poor re-conpence that he received for his labor, because of the companys paying him for his labor, in the store orders they having a store, where their employees bought their provi-sions, and cloathing, and charge charged a high rait of intrest for their goods, and any man that worked, for this company and did their tradeing too their store generaly, lost part of his days earnings we did not stay down too iron vile long after Father quit work, but moved up too the city, i believe the following summer in a house near the corner of lagrange and summit streets oaned by partys by the name of Hollenbanks we lived in this house quite a long time, we were growing up intwo man and woman had as well advanced in our teens, and able too work for our self, ex three youngest, whose age ranged from 3 and 7 and 10 years, about this time a shingle mill was built on the river docks, at the foot of Chessnut street, built and oaned by Smith, Law, and Walters or Watters, i am not shure which, is the right name the words or names ar so simular, how-ever, when it gott too runing we all got employment, that is the 3 oldest of children, or 4 oldest, my two sisters jointing shingles, at 75 cents a day apece, and my self and Brother Nelson employment, at packing shingles intwo bun-dles at 3 cents a bunch, we made quite fair wages at this work, after the first or second weeks work my Brother get-ting so much improved that he would, or could pack 100 bunches a day making his days wages, $ 3 three dollars for a small boy of 10 or 12 years of age they had so many small children working there packing shingles that i became ashamed of my job, and appyed too my boss for a more manly posision and he gave me one of the shingle presses too run, the employment brought, me for a days wages one dollar and a half, or one dollar and 75 cents a day, i doo not remem-ber which though i think it was the latter, our combined sallreis for one weeks work was in the nabor hood of $34 thirty four dollars for the foure of us oldest children for each week that wee worked full time we lived verry comfort-able with what we earned and were quite contented, the shingle mill work did not last long and wee were finealy throwne out of employment, i found or got employment at the molding factory, where they made black wallnut mouldings for picture frames furniture did not gett so much wages there in the moulding factory, as in the shingle mille, but it was steddy work the year around, i work there untill i was compelled too quit on acount of the thick hevvey dust that was continuely flying through, so thick that the room was cloudy, all the time that the machiens for making moulding was in motion, it fill ones face nose mouth and eyes and every breath one drew he inhaled dust, it became difficult for me too, brethe good so i quit, and looked for work some where else, i found employment in a paint shop and started too learn the trade of painting the painting Store and shop, was oaned and by Brown, and Kellog, they were the leeding, painting contractors of the city of Toledo at that time, and had a large gang of men, working for them at that time, not oanly they doeing the best part of the citys, work, but had a large gang of men working on bridge work out side of the city i worked there a number of years, and months, or months i got $ 150 dollar and 50 cents a day for my labor, and was allso learning the traid of painting, i finealy quit because he would not raise my salrey, and while looking for work i would go down too the docks along the river front and get some work by the our, loading or unloading vessels, with stoves and square timber i got 50 cents an our for my labor on severl occazions, i got this kind of work, about this time, my sister bigan keeping company with a young man, by the name of Frank Smith, and after going with her for a while they were Mar-ried, he at that time followed lathing contracting for a living i remember of him coming too our house, too see my sister on every Saturday evening after his evening meal or supper, and he having dressed himself in his Sundays best, he generaly carried with him his weeks wages in a great big pocket book, and was in the habbit of showing it too me, it was generaly in the naborhood of $18, and $21, or $25, dol-lars, that he carried in his big pocket book, for one weeks work, and the amount exsighted my cuipittity too such an extent that i quit the painting trade and went too work with him learning the lathing trade, i followed it as a business, for a while, when, wee moved on the east side of the river, i then quit and went too work in the shop or the painting shop of the toledo pump company, painting pumps, i there got steddy work at $75 cents a day, they liked my work, and raised my wages too $2,00 too dollars a day and i became asistant forman in the paint shop department, i found that one of his, or the bosses relatives that was working their at the time was getting 25 cents more a day than i was getting yet was not any better workman, so i quit, and went back too work with my Brotherinlaw, Frank Smith at the lathing business and followed it as a business every since, but at times dooing odd jobs of painting, when there was not much work at lathing, we moved from the east side of the river, it is not necessary here too explaine, i will oanly state that my too oldest sisters got married, and one went too keeping house, with her husbands people and the other sister lived with our parrents, they managed too live quite comfortable, yet were verry poor but strictly honest, perhapps it was their honesty that kept them so poor, i have had my suspicesions aroused in this respect, and am rather inclined too the beliefe that it was their honesty that kept us all poor i will her state that my Father seeing the necessity of dooing something too keep the wolf from the door, all tough he was blind thought that he might sell fish, on commission if he could get some one, or some little boy too lead him around, and too come from his business stand, so as out cousin was stopping with us, he thought that he would bee what he required, for his as-sistance, and trying him found, that hee was all that was nessesserry, for now he had eyes, and could gett around all right, he then went in two the business, and sucseded so well, that some weeks they would make as high as fifty dol-lars a week, father was a very indpendent man, and nowing his dependancy in his blind stat, concived the plan, o fmaking himself of independent, i will not gow into a de-tale account of the many ups and downs, in our famley life but sufice it too say that they were many, and at times very trying, as i am not righting this, for fun, nor neather too gain notoreity, but for a purpose and the pur-pose is too prove my saneity, by showing in riteing that i know all that has happened too me or my famley or people before my incarceration, in this state Hospital, for insane and at the presant time am riteing it down, sitting in my sell, in an asylum for the insaine, about the time that we left the Hollenbacks, house i began keeping company with girls out side of our famley, or strange young ladies, ta-keing them too balls, privet parttys and sometimes spending an evening in some ice cream parlor, i did not make no choyce of any one girl, but insisted the first one that i happened too think of yet a little later in my aquantance, with young ladies, my affections settled on one perticular, young ladie, and i began kepping her steady company her, folks were german, and emegrants, coming over too this country, when they were very young, and single, and set-tling in pennsellvaynia, in the town of reeding, and there were married and raised a large famley, there were 2 boys, and 4 girrels in the famley, named respectfully Elezeibeth, John, Matilda, Margarett, Joe, and, Clara, Friend, they were not a great while in toledo, when i first new them, haveing having moved too, toledo, in war time, or the last ---- draft for new recrutes, in our late cival war their father was drafted and not being able too gett a substitute was compelled, too runaway too keep the officers from ta-keing hom and makeing him surve in the armey, i kept comp-ney with Matilda, for two years or more before, we were married, i am compelled too state the reasons of our mar-rage, for curcomestances have made it nessearry too my diliverance, from this oufull imprisonment, and too wright the through mistaken ideas and the vile and horroble lies, of my enemies, that has kept me in this asylum, for 11 eleven long years, i and my peasant wife, became great lov-ers in the corce of our court ship so much in love with one another that we were never happy away from, each other, or when seperated, and in a moment, of hedeless ness, or cair-less ness, one of the many times we were togeather we be-came man and wife, in the sight of god, for weel, or woe, it was not long after that she became pregnant, and nes-sisity compelled me too marrie her by law, she would not have had too go too extremes, it was not nessesserry, for i was perfectly willing too be married, too her, and dureing all of out long married life i have not broken by cahabet-ing with any other wimmen, the sacrid vows as we boath stued before the justic of the court, and swore by the laws of god, and man too love, cherish, obeay ,protect, and honor in sickness, or in health, so long as god, letts us live, out sacrid marriage vows, and i mean too keep forever their sacrid princeiples, untill death doth us part There are any number of places and houses, that we lived in and went too, boath before and after my marriege that i think is not necseary necseary too mention, here and many ups and downs, in my married life sometimes prosperity would smile on us, then advercity would strike us with her hlas of povertys ills, then there would be a riff in the dark heavy cloud that our shaddow or life, and finealys the sun with all its brightness would shine for us again, and so the years roalled on form one too another, and from a small famley of 3 we increced the number too 5 members, in our famley 3 children and my Wife and myself the children being strong and healthy and answering too their names of [Rich-ard - crossed out], John, Clara, and Arthur, respectfully, i will here state that it was my disire and is my disire still too add too the names of each of my children, and it was a partal agreement, by my self and wife, too doo this, and we, or i did name too of them with an extra, name, it was the too boys, it is my disire that if they chance too see, little book in which is inscribed the sucsises or ills and the disires of my married life that they will kepp sac-rid and fulfill, my disires, my oldest sons name too bee Richard John, and my youngest for the great love i bore my Brother and the deep sorrow, i still feal at his loss, is too bair his name in honor too his memory it is the name that we all respect and love, and that my son will ever re-spect it in his every day life, and intercorce with the public i have not the slitest, doubt the name in that of Deloss, Arthur, ______, i would like allso if it were pos-sible, for my oldest son too take the name of his grand fa-ther, That of John, Enon, ______ , i have bin with and around and work for my grand Father, and i know his dispo-sision, too bee kind and gentle yet severe whhen one was in the rong, and ever determind too bee on the right side of the subject in dispute and i found that what puit him above the average man, and made him ---------------- -------- was his great preasantes of mind and his wonderfull common scences, hopeing that my son will accept his name and, re-spect it knowing that it was once the name of one of na-tures noblemen, and one of my oldest Brothers given names, as too my Daughter i havent any idea of changing her name, or adding too it, another for i can honestly say, that the name of Clara is all suficant and that she will so live her life, too compare favorably with her pretty name, hopeing that my children will, respect my disires, dureing their natural lives i havent the slitest doubt, the years contin-ues too good too our prosspaty, and age, some of the small benefits of living came, our way, yet allso disipointments, and so time passed on, for all of us, in the way of death, as wee all managed too keep healthy, liveing in different locations in the city untill Father through the influence of the grand armey got from the goverment, his pention, of 72 dollars a month and allso a back pention of nearly a thousand dollars, it was a wonderfull wind fall, for him and, made him and my Mother comfortable for life, it was not long after Father got his pention, that he thought of building, or bying a house or a home, for him self and my mother, as we had allways lived in rent since just before the war, when Father went too work for Niles, and moved too the place where his work was the place was called James Town and was on the bay shore near seder point, there was a sawmill there too or three other houses for private fam-leys, a large boarding house built of loggs, and a long narrow, dock for loading boats with lumber, or unloading them, my fathers employment, consisted of choping up slabbs for the furnace doeing the fireing and runing the engin, i will not for gett a curcomestance conected with our moveing, as it has reference too what happened too my self, an dcame verry near being the death of my self, we moved our house hole furnishings down too James Town on a sailing vessel or scow, sailing down the river, and getting too our destination after dark, tied the old scow up along side of the long narrow dock, and prepared too gow up too the tav-ern too spend the night, my brother the oldest one, jumped off of the scow on too the dock, and stood waiting for the rest of us too disembark from the scow, i was in the cabbin with my Mother and we were too be takeing off by father, who was working at something outside on the boat, and had bin keeping us, longer than i cared too stay on the boat so becoming inpatchent at the long delay broak away form my Mothers hold of me, and started out of the cabbin, climing over the top of it, on too a lott of hay that the boat was loaded, with along with other merchantdies, and walking along on top of the hay too wards the dock, i got, too close too the edge and slid off of the hay intwo the hay the all, gone a scream, and mother hollord worse than all, bringing asistance too her directly, a fellow by the name of tom shanteau came running with a lantern, and seeing the nesesity of imedeate action jumped in two the hay di-rectly where i had slid off of the boat, and my Father along with him, it was a verry dark knight and, it was in-chance that, they jumped intoo the watter, near where i went down Father swam from, pile to pile in search of me, yet with out success, and was giving up in disparie, when he heard, the voice of Tom Shatting in triumps, i have got him sam, and with the asistance of a rope lett down from the scow too tom, we were boath pulled on board of the old scow, transferred too the dock, and i was caried too the tavern, for i was senceless, and thought dead i happene, too remember that it was my Brothers hand that i pulled away from, and walked off the dock, struck the hay on the boat and off intwo the hay and not my Mothers hand that i girked away from, i remember that i thought that, the dock, was broad like those in the city, and i wanted too walk around and exploair it, i remember nothing of my jurney from the dock too the tavern, or when or how long a time it was before they brought me too, the first thing i doo re-member was walking around on the tavern floor, in a nude state with a big belly, and mother, crying and laughing, at one and the same time at my narrow escape from drownding, and the condission, i was in, and a number of other laydies in the tavern with a few men looking on, it was but a lit-tle while before Father had a new house, built, on an acere, of ground that he had bought from Mr. Niles, it be-ing the first house that father, oaned before the war, too my recolection i will now return, with my scrib, and begin again with my storrie at where i left off, as i have not much time too spare in the penning of these lines so must gett at the facts, with more, determination too keep steady in that line, or i will bee forever finishing it, Father and one of my sisters heard of a house for sale, and went too see it, likeing the location, and the house, they con-fered with the lawers that had the property for sale, saw the ones, and closed the deel, and paid down 28 hundred dollars, for the property, it was not verry long after he had bought this property, that he got a coupld of lotts cheap in North Toledo and concived the idea of building a cotage house on them, for this purpose he hired his Father, too dig the foundation and build it with luck, my Brother Nelson and my self not having anything too doo went and helped grand Father dig and build the foundation and Father pay us by the day, at 150 a day or 200 dollars a day i for-gett which, we went too work and built the foundation, my grand Father Brother Nelson, and myself it was not long the foundations completed, when Father gave my Brother Nelson and my self the contract of Building the house for $350 dollars, and him too furnish, all the matiereall we hired one carpenter and puit up the house working our selfs, when it was complete Father and Mother moved in, too one of the best cotages in the city, they have scence lost it, by mortgage while we were building Father house, he negoceated with a real estate man for another lot for me, at verry cheape raites of payments and i accepted, them took the lot and built a cotage on it or a peace of a cotage on it and moved in, the next 2 years following, i aded too it by raiseing the roof and finishing it in side complete, we lived in it quite a number of years, when i found that it was not large enough, so i went in too the lone association and took a mortgage on the property for $350 dollars, pay-able in sums of 75 cents a week with intress, shortly af-ter, i went in the loan assocuation, i became, convinced that all was not as it aught too bee, and bee perfectly free from sin, an extreem jellous turn of mind, controled my every action, and my Wife became suspicous of me, or afrade that there was somehing rong with my health, and i needed medical addvice, so persuaded me too goo too a doc-tor and see if he could help me by giving me some, medisen for my biliousness, thinking that my stumic was out of or-der, wee went and it was not much of any satisfaction, for he said that there was nothing the matter with me we then came home and went too my Fathers house which was just ac-rost the road from ours, his number on the house being 2310 and ours being 2311 Lehome [Chase?] Street North Toledo, why we went over too my fathers house was that my being not satisfied, with the idea of my wife takeing me too the doc-tors for mediscan too cure me of some sickness, when i felt so simtoms, of any disease, and thought, i would hear the opinions of my wife and the old folks, it seems that it was not in acordance with the doctors and that i was realy sick, at anyrate, my Father and Mother, alond with my Sis-ters thought so, and prepared to send me too anarbor, too the medical collage for treetment, haveing heard from some sorse that they could cure any disease their, so my Father and oldest sister took me too Anarbor Medical Colage for some kind of treatment, that i have never bin able too dis-cover eather the disease or or what was ment by the treet-ment that i received while i was there it savored of adisire on the part of the colage officals, too too give me something too make me sick, so they could keep me there, indeffnantly or as long as it ansurered their purpose, i will rite here who in my knowledge the parttys were dooing too me and how they were using me at the Anarbor medical Collage, i went too the colage with my father, and sistere Rozatta, and they made arangements with the collage offi-cals for my board and, treatment, they my father and sister was too pay 4 dollars a week for my board, and i was too receive, medical treetment for some emagined disease i went out in front of the office with father and sister and bid them good by, shook hands with my father, kissed my sister then we parted, they takeing the rout home and i going back in too the office they had paird my board for 5 weeks, in advance, and i did not, need too bee worryed about money for father had left $20 dollars with the officals, for me and i could have, whanted of it for spending, for what ever i wished too by for my comfort, they had a dining room in the little low building and there wee patants took our meals the first meal that i ate there i watched them quite clostely, and observed that some of the table girlls were pasing siges, too one of the borders sitting beside my self at table i watched him, and saw him motion towards me i watched him, and all of the others, but could see nothing the matter with and of them eather in signs or actions from any of them, accept these two the dining room girl, and the young man that sit next too my self, i don't know where he could have foiund a more disagreeable contiance, expressice of every low crime, and i believe too this preasant day, would doo anything for money, even too the committing of murder, i watched them all throught the meal and at its end, went out, behind the building, and stood up against the building, feeling quite sick, i know that it was or the sickness was produced from something that i had eating in my food, at knight they gave me a bed in the Hospital ward, next too the bed, situated in the north west corner, of the room, on the wall clost too the door was too all apearance, a telliphone battery, but which could be used for other purposes and i believe was, on my bed was a hair matress, and an iron cot bed, ther was of corse the regulation blan-ket, and quilt, with sheets and under my bed, was a battrie about the size of a bushell basket, yet square, it was in the winter time of year, yet the last winter month of march, and quite cold, so much so that one was compelled too sleep with all the bed cloaths that he could gett, on the bed if he wanted too sleep warm, yet i had onely 1 sheet and one little blanket, yet in the middle of the knight i waked up dripping wet with persperation, and trem-bleing with i under stood, electricity i was being electer-cised, i got out of bed went throught the center ile of the long room, too the watter closet, in another room situated in the south side of the building there was a short hall, and on one side of this hall was the watter closets, and on the other side of this hall, was 3 or 4 windows, overlook-ing, the campus, or play grounds of the collage, i staid this knight through, and the next morning after washing up and walking around out side for a few moments, the brefckfaste bell rang and i went in too brackfust, the same performance of the knight preveious, at supper happen at breckfast, only added too that of the knight before was, that i vomited up my breckfast, and was quite sick with a cold sweat, dropping from my forehead, and neck, i knew that their was poision in the food, i staid thruout that day and late in the knight, with the same thing happing too me, and i was getting worse all of the time in my stumic from the efects of the poisioned food, and my treatment at knight, so made up my mind not too stand it any longer but, skip out, soo i went too the watter closet, and tried the windows, and found that they were open, i then thought of going back after my cloaths, through the long sleeping room, ase i oanly had puit on my pants Shirt and socks, but in making toowards the door, i saw one of the night guards coming toowards me with something in his hand, thinking it was a club and, as i had no disire too meet him and, spill blood by fighting i stepped too one of the windows raised it up, and jumped out on to the ground ran a crost the cam-pus, in a south east direction, with oanly, my shirt pants, and a pair of socks on, and with out any hat, it was rain-ing quite hard, though i remember i felt no, cold, or did i mind this rain, i followed a stormy street down hill, and i remember, that it was full of small stones that had bin broken up from large lime stones for the macattemizeing [macadamizing, i.e., paving] of the road bed, and the horrable time i had of getting down the hill, i tell you it was verry painfull, walking on bro-ken stones, in ones bare feet, i finealy got down the hill and found i was near the river or crick that runs through the town, and on a road that ran along side of the river i followed the road untill i came too the bridge that spans the river, i crossed the river, and followed the pond, in too the country, and found that i was, going farther away from home, i then turned around and recrossed the river and found the railroad tracks and followed them untill they seperated, but took the rong one enrout for home, i fol-lowed it all the same, untill i came too a paper mill by the side of the railroad, getting there about daylight, and seeing smoke comeing out of the stack went in the engin room, and saw the fireman a fireing the boilers i told him my curcumestances, and my suspisions, he said he was poor but would, help me all he could, i laid down on the saw-dust, in front of the furnace, and took arest and began drying my cloaths by the furnace he went home, and brought me some breckfast, and an old pair of over shoes, and told me too stay by the fire and dry my self, i did as i was told, and when dry went up stairs in the mill and watched him make paper, i staid around there a copple of hours then started on my, way, toowards home up the railroad track, but finding that i was on the rong road, started, acrost country, too strike the Anarbor railroad, but some way missed the road, and got lost, i started up a wagon road which had the good fortune too stumble over, and followed it up with the hope that i would evenchualy strike the rail road again soon, but luck was against me for i traveled, till dark and did not see any rail road amiste the rain and hail and when knight came, i was wet through and tired out, i went too a farm house, and asked for a knight lodgeing, told them my cercomstances, and was taken in given my sup-per and bed and breckfast, as i was about too start on my jerny, seeing the condision of my feet, he gave me an old pair of felt boots, for which i thanked him bid him a kindly good by and went on my way rejoycing, in my travles of that day, i came acrost a railroad, and followed it up untill i came too a small town that i cannot rember the name as it was dark when i reach there and raising hard i went intwo one of the stores, and asked the poprietor if i could dry my cloaths by his fire, he granted the permision and as he was, standing too a custermer at the time, weigh-ing out tobacco, i asked him for a little and he gave me what would bee a fair nickles worth of finecutt chewing to-bacco, thanking him, for it i made my way too the stove puled off my coat, and began drying it, at the fire, while i was ocupied in the drying of my cloaths, some too or three farmers came in and too the store, and i asked them if they knew where i could find a knight login, one of them a big stallwork german, told me too come over too his fa-thers house and hee would see that i got a place to sleep, for that knight he took me to the barn, and down a stairs, intwo the basement, in an airsic way between the cows and the sheep throwed down a lot of new hay with some blankets and a baffaly robe, and told me, too enjoy a good nights rest i told him that i would try, and so he left me, the next morning, they caulled me up too breckfast, i went in and ate a harty meal, bade them a kind good by and left, i followed the railroad going west, and landed in a town called grass lake, about 8 or 9 oclock at knight, and stopped in the railroad telegraph office, and enquired what place i was in, he told me and and also that it was 26 miles west of anarbor i asked him if he would send a dis-spatch too my people, at Toledo he said he would but that it would cost me 25 cts, and i must must pay cash, i told him that i did not have any money but if he would send the dispatch that he cold colect it at this end, of the line, that what ever he charged my people would pay, that all that was necisary too in form the office, too colect att this end of the line, he finealy agreed too send, it, i told him what too send and then went out and enquired for the sherrif of the place, but could not find him, i wanted a knights ladgeing as it was raining hard and, i could not stay in the telegraph office as it was strictly against the rools and the dispatch agent would lose his place if he alowed any one but an employee too remain in the place, so not being successfull in finding any one, of the jail gards, or the sherrif, i started down the railroad track for toledo on foot and at about 10, 10 oclock at knight, with the rain and sleet falling and the wind, a blowing, too beet old nick there were a train coming boath ways and bearing that i might bee run over i took a side track that lead away from the main track and followed it up till it stop in a way road, seeing the entrance that i had got from the main railroad i started a crost the commons an dthrough the woods, down hill and up hill. i came too a swaley place with some willows and a number of large deep ditches, one of them was 10 or 12 ft; wide and fully that deep, knowing that the road was just over the hill and that the sevaile ran for a long distance and it would take too or 3 ours too goo around, i made the spring deturmend too land on the other side, i fell short about 1 foot, and down i went in two the watter but in going down caught at the roots or lims of a willow that grew clost too the watters edge and succeded in grasping it and puilling myself out of the wat-ter, i climed the hill struck the railroad track again and started south, getting intwo the town of michigan center, about 4 oclock in the morning and going through the main street found not one of them up in the town, i than went up the road aways and waited for 6 oclock too come, after i thought i had waited long enough, i started started back and went too the hotell in the town, as i got there, he was just opening the night shutters i went up too him and asked him him for the privelage of warming my self at his fire, in the sitting room he granted it, and gave me a warm cup of coffie, with a coupple of warm bisketts and thinking i had not eaten enough, braught me another cup of coffie and another biskett, told me too take off my coat and vest and dry them i didso he then went and got me a neadle and thread too sew up my pants where i had torn them, going through some brambles, the night before crossing the swale, i sewed up the holes in my pants, thanked him for his kind-ness and started down the railroad track and got quite a ways when looking in the direction from which i came, i saw some men on the track as i thought working but which proveed too bee farmers and a couple of men getting their team, acrost the track, i made in their direction and com-ing up asked them for a ride the teamster was willing, so i got in the wagon and sit down behing with my feet hanging out behind and then as i got niceley settled he started up his horses and away we went up the road, and climed a large hill, and started down to the road at a good, pace takeing me away from the railroad dew west, i was just, concider-ing, the adviseabillity of getting out, and going back too the railroad, as i saw that they were takeing me farther away from my distenation, or where i wanted too goo, whin the farmer puiled up his horses at one of the gates that led too one of the houses that lined the road at distances of a mile or less and said iam not going any further, so i jumped out and made back for the railroad track and reached the hotell near moon where i had started from in the morn-ing i awent in and sitdown, when the lanlord came in the room and told me that he had received, a dispatch from jackson michigan, that the offfercers was comeing after me too take me too jackson, that my people had sent a dispatch too them too hold me there till they came after me, while wee were talking, the pasenger train came in and too of the largest men i most ever saw, dressed in police uniform, walked in too the hotell, and enquired for me i told them that i was the partty they were looking for, so they sit down and waited for the next train down, and when it came a long, i was taken too jackson, and locked up, for the knight, in the poleace station, my sister came the next morning about 7 oclock and took me back too anarbor, and we staid over knight at a boarding house, the next morning af-ter breckfast, she enquired at the hospital for my cloaths but did not get them for some reason, that they explained too her, i became suspisious, and would not wate for the down train, for toledo, so i told my sister that we would walk too the next station, and we walked too the next sta-tion a distance of 15 miles that day if i am corect, and got there about dusk stopped too the hotell got supper and went too bed or did for was afwull tired, we were up at breckfast the next morning, an dafter brushing up started for the depot, too be in time for the train, and after get-ting their one of the hotell borders, talked insulting or what i thought was eatehr too me or my sister, and i was going too punch his head, but my sister interfierd and stopped the fight, he was a big strapping fellow some thing over 6 feet, but was a black, coward, when the train came along we got a board and come too toledo ariveing home in the naborhood of 12 oclock noon, and went too my father house, they were all glad too see me and i was glad too gett home i staid around home 2 or 3 days and dureing all the time since i first left anarbor in the midle of the night barefoot, with out coat or hat being in, and travel-ing in the rain and snow night and day, falling in the ditch and nearly drounding, and not chhangeing my cloaths, i felt not the slitest efects from it not even a slite cold, i was extremely healthy, weighing in the nabor hood of 2004 pounds or 205 pounds, and so compactly built that one not knowing my weight, would not not believe that it was possible, in an apparently small man like my self, i staid around my fathers home for a while, and finealy, went home and every thing in or about the famley or about my self, being sent too anarbor was quietly hushed up, and all became scierene and happy, i went too work, but, became disconted with every thing and every boddy, and finealy be-came extreemly jellious of my wife it i had a cause, too bee jellious of her god knows, and ifi did ore did not have a cause too bee jelious, of her actions, it was no ones buisness out side of my famley, and relatives and i most stiniously denue thais right, and condem them for it and as god punishes all those that disobeay his morial laws so doo i know that my enemies will get their just punnishment in all good time, i became, possessive of something that has every cince remained with me, and something that after dew investigation has allways bin in my posesion, it was that i was a great structiom and had found it too bee distraction too my health, and while makeing me wise in a seccret way, by by keeping me full of electrissity and thus, make of me a thought reader, too a great extent, and and allso a clarivoyant, so that i knew every thing that was transpir-ing in and around the naborhood, yet it was not conducive too ones health and, consequently not disired by my self as i thought i was smart enough, and their was some seccretts had better not bee brought too light, and i did not want too know, or pry into other peoples private famley seccrets by my self and i thought i was smart enouth, and their was some seccrets had better not bee brought too light, and i did not want too know, or pry intwo other people private famley seccrets i became suspisious, on the strength of the seccret knowlage of clarvoyancey, and thought reading ex-posess, and brings too ones mind, my suspiscous as i said before of my wife and, was not contented too sit still and see, a great rong did too me or my children, so i watched perseadings, with all the caire possible the ---- reason that i had, of rong being practased on me was an unatural disire on her part inaction, bee in converce with other men or take their advice in prefferance too mine and the disire too slite my opinions and a disire on her part too have me out of the home, and too bee a lone willingness on her part too believe and take others opinions as reguards my health, and many other little faults that earatated and made me jelious, and verry unhappy so much so that i had no in-clanation too work and was verry discontented with my hard lott, i will say here that though i had ample opertuneity for seeing and knowing what happened in any way possible, that my wife bore out the good opinions that the neibors had of her, and that i had verturely no direct evidence of her rong dooing that it all oridgeanated from my posesion of this seccret thought reading and from clarevoyance yet the suspisious ness was their and could not bee driven away things in general went on as before yet in a more subdued way, yet allways with that jelious disagreeable feeling and finealy came too a corupt quarrel it occurred comeing home from a grocery store on one sunday morning, after dooing our treading, for the day we were coming along the street toowards home when the doctor coming along joined us and began talking with my wife, and after holding a slite con-versation with her, left us at our gate we, went in the house, and finding that something else was wanted from the store, or it was something my sister wanted too tell us, that called us out of the house the seccond time, it was eather one or the other of these wants that we went too fulfill, and as we were returning from our ereants and were about half way home, in the center of of a commands that reach from street and took in the whole squire i began get-ting angery thinking of the doctors conversation, and in an extremely pashonate time, i slapped her over, and came within an ace of killing her, but before i had made an at-tempt, in that direction their suddenly came too my mais-tance the conseguance of such a crim, and it stopped fur-ther hostillity in that direction, and i thank god too this day for his timely interfereance too save me from a fellens death, yet i never can for give my self for this one rash act, while i had turned my back too her in picking up some-thing that i had dropped form my pocketts or arms she sprang too her feet and ran intwo the house, and i ran af-ter her with all my might, and caught her just as she had got in the door, of our house and began too talk too her, she was crying quite hard, and taking my feace with terra-ble grief i went intwo another room too get a chair when she ran out of the back door and ran over too one of the neibors and went in i followed her over went in and puiled her out by the arm, and in letting go of her too close the door, gave her the chance that she wanted, and she ran away again too another neibors, i following her yet, had lost seight of her, i went out in front on the street and looked up and down, , it, i spied her nearly a blocke away just turning the corner, i ran after her and was soon up with her, we met in the center of the block that at that time was vacant, and near the anarbor crossing, on summit , i had just met her and we were talking i persuading her too the best of my abillity too come home, and she refusing, when my brother came up and, tried too have us boath goo home, when i happened too look in the direction of sumit Avennew, and there i saw a patroll wagon coming on a dead run in my direction, and was soon upon us, i started too run but was soon overtaken by a police man whohad jumped out of the wagon in persute of me, and braught back, and puit intoo the patrol wagon and takeing right down too the police station by the summit street rout and tacked upsome of my officous neibors had rang the police alairm and i was arested, i was kept in the lock up over Sunday and on a Monday morning was puit in the police van and taking down too the county jail, too stand trile for my sanity, i don't recolect if the first trile occurred on Monday or the next morning yet i believe i am right in saying that it occurred the same day, and, it was puit off and hushed up, i gained my liberty once more, we -- went home, when my wife said she would not live with me any longer it raised the old suspisions and as my people did not want me too live with her any longer, but come home to them, it made me still more suspisious, and i became quite angery yet did not doo nothing, but went over too my fathers house acrost the street and staid with them, i would go acrost the street, once or twice a week, yet my mother and father was allways opposed too my going, she was in the habit of comeing over too my peoples house as often as i came or went over too see her, we finealy became friends once more and, i began living too my oan house i worked, at my labor, or lathing when i was not, work ing at any thing else and comeing home one day we began holding a conversation on the small ness of the house, and how we could manage, too make it larger, we finealy boath agreeing too take up 3 or $350 dollars in the loan assocuation, and give a mortgage on our property for scurity we borrowed the $350 dollars, from the loan, and started too building the addisions on the house, bying our lumber at Kelsey and Friemans lumber yard, and my Brother Nelson comeing down, too my house, too help me frame, the and puit it up, we had started too frame and, worked all that after noon, and part of the next when it began too rain, and we laid off, it rained so hard that it became berry muddy and wee were compelled too stop i cannot remember if we -------------------------------------- , from the --------------------------------- after i had, bin too anarbor, my mind at the presant time, of riteing this, is under the controle, of these people, by hipnotism, and i have a hard trial too puit, any thing on record as my mem-ory, 

i ought, i will continue, as i have begain, hopeing that i have transmitted it from memory, too these pages corestly, if not the substance is the trouth, and the onely misstake is, in the corect time of it, transpireation, af-ter the mud had dryed up so that we could go too work at the frameing, again Nelson came down too the house for that purpose but did not go too work, be cause we had another quarrel and she had gon too her sisters too spend the night, and i had too go back too my Fathers house, too stay, and the day following i went down town too and too the town, and having 75 dollars to send come home, she di dnot return that knight, or i did not see her, so the next morning after breckfast, i puit on my fathers overcoat and went down town it had bin snowing the knight before and was quite cold yet was thawing some in places, where the sun shined, and the wind could not gett at these placed, though where the wind had a full sweep it was blustery and cold blowing the snow in great heeps and driffts, i went intwo a saloon and sit down too a table and called for some drinks, receiveing them i made my self comfortable by leanning my back a gainst the walll and prepaired too spend the after noon, i played a few games of cards, shook the a few games of dice, and treated some of the people that were in there, and finealy got off my seat went up two the bar and bying bying the cigars for my self and two or 3 others that were in there, settled my bill with the bar tender, went out doors, and went home, i think that it was quite late when i got too my fathers house if my memory serves me right, but can not possatively say the next morning it was quite warm and the snow was melting very rappidaly, and as the following day there was not much of it left thesame day or the next, my wife came home from her sisters, and was as good as it is possible for any woman too bee, and exsist on this earth, i knowing why she was so kind, did not take much stock in it, but thinking that one might come too a happy understanding, and that was better than a qurrel, i gave her kindness, for kindness, and we were boath the happeyear for it we had not bin long togeather, before she asked me for too give her the money that i had draw from the loan, i told her that i would, not, then she wanted me too go down too the lumber yard and pay it on the lumber that i had contracted for, i agreed too this proposion and wee started on our ----- for a few blocks too freemans lumber yard driving there we went in and paid i think $60 dollars on some lumber that we had contracted for our new house, shortly after this i was at work, and not feeling verry contented i returned home, form my work, and, went down too the river, lying down under a shade tree too while away the after noon hours, i was meditateing on the honestity of the people in this world, and compairing my hard lot in lifes fickle fortunes with the lifes of others men, when i was interrupted in my meditations by the apearance of my wife she sat down near me on the ground under the tree, and be-gan talking too me, about how i felt and i did not think that it would bee better for me too goo too the doctors and bee examend too see if there was any thing the matter with me, or ------ medicen, too clense my system, i told her that there was nothing the matter with me but if she thought there was i would go with her too the doctors, we went and the first doctor that examend me seemed too think that i had too much blood and neaded couping so he puit the cups on after takeing off my coat vest and shirts, the cups did not hurt me much, neither doo i think that they did me any ingurey, or any good, for i was not sick or in nead of any medical treetment, and the doctor said that there was nothing the matter with me, the doctors name was cook and him and my wife had, a private conversation i doo not know what the perport ofit was, but supose that it was, reguard-ing my self, we went home from the doctors and i remained the rest of the day at home, the following morning i again went to work, all, right and, reamined at my work all day, and for too or 3 days following, then a dark suspision took poseasion of me that all was not right at home, and i quit work and came home, oanly to find that my suspisions were not corect my wife began again with her everlasting pleed-ing, with me too too too the doctor again with her, and get something too drive away, the listless suspisious, feeling that had quite a furm holt of me, that it was noghitn but billiousness that was the cause of my feeling that way, well i went with her the next morning too another doctor whose office was on madson street, and the corner of 17th street, we went in and sit down in the office, and waited for the doctor too come, an he was out, some where, and while waiting for his return, another, patant cam in the office and sit down, too allso wait for the doctors return, she was a woman of about 30 or 35 years of age verry han-some and in the best of health, quite well dressed and had the appearance of an abundance of this worlds goods in her posesion, the lady and my wife had quite a confab, and the subject was my self, shortly after the doctor came in and, atended too her wants then she left he then called us in too the consultation room and inquired our wants, talking the while too my wife, and finealy, rot a perscription telling us the drug store too go too too get it filled we went too the store at the corner of franklin Ave; and adams street, we just got their too the store just as the doctor drove in his cart and, we went in the store all too geather, he, went up too the drugest and said something too him then went out, we then handed the perscription to the drugest and he filled it, takeing an 8 ounce vile, i be-lieve for the purpose, i watched him like a hock and saw what canestiers he took the medican from, and even at this late date i believe that i could point out too any one, the exact, canstiers, that he took the medican from, if i was too bee brought there, and the drug store still existed with no change in its, insides, the medican was strong cop-prous, dark green in collar, and he filled the vile 2 thirds full, and then puit a transparante liquid in, with another that was the cullar of wine adark brown the second remedy was in my belief tincture of iron the third remedy was for the blood or to act on the system, we went home, again, i knowing that i was not sick or in nead of any medicon yet my wife determined that i must take it i made the atempt and, i believe that if i had, drank live coals or liqued fire it would not have burnt any worse, it felt, as if my insides were on fire, my throat, and lungs and my stumic were burning, i took a drink of watter then went out of the house the watter quenched the fire except in my lungs, so i went over to the drug store and bought, a bot-tle of patant medican, called laudnum, for the throat and lungs, a remedy that was considered, unequaled, as a care for lung complaint, i opened the bottle and drank half, of it it went too my lungs and stopp the burning and eating pain that was caused by takeing the doctors medicin i kept it seccret and took it occasionaly and in a few days was all right, i was verry carefull about what i ate or drank after this expearance, and i would not take no more, of the medican that we got from the doctors, the medican was in my opinion was perpared, for the persoe of running me, in too the dropsy and comsumptsion, if they could persuade me too take it, though i honestly believe that my wife did not know this, or she would not have bin so ergant for me too take it, poor woman she did not know the aufful conspireicy that was, hatched, by certain seacret organizeations too distroy my honor, and take my life by a slow murder, through the sorce of the medican vile, yet i did but could not wholey stop or their aufful conspiracy, nor did she know that, in the incorporation of my self, in this asylum, it puit me in their clutches and was for the purpose of my distruction by the afore said seccret soscetty, if she or my people had known this horrable conspireicy against my life they would have moved heven and earth too gett me out of here, that is some of them would an dso would my wife, have got me out of here, it was shortly after this that i was arested and brought before the probate judge, and com-mited too the asylum for the first offence that the probate judge discharged, me for, oanly a few days before, the of-fence of having too bad a temper,, so i must be brought out here and stay a while too cool off, i will say in extenua-ton for the judge that i believe at the time of my convic-tion that he had no idea that, there was a conspiracy against my life or honor, by anyone, yet i believe that he was informed of this conspiracy shortly after my convic-tion, and oanly condem him for his carelessness, and want of dooing something too better my posision here, or getting my releace scince it was my distruction, for too remain here and every hour of my confinement was fraught with dan-ger to my life and honor, scince it was through his mis-judgement that i was incarcerated in this asylum for in-saine, yet perfectly sencubic and healthy, i will begin now, at the time of my second arest and trile, every thing that transpired, too me, up too the present time and as corectly as i can remember it and will allso transfer from memory all that these people have did, in any capasity, in this book, it is my disire too not rite any thing but the trouth in this book, so that any one that may by chance have the good luck or bad misfortune, too gett it in their possession, will not have any trouble, with it, and if by chance a humane person him or her will, follow it, prince-ables and asist any one of these poor mortals, who by their oan actions have proved themselves worthy of assistance, and so save them from the coruptness of these people and from what is worse than death dishonor, they will gett the blessings of all honorable people, and allso those of the partys whosoever him or her, may chance too help yet the person or party of person who band them self too geather for the purpose of assisting those in dire, distress as these people are at the presant time, will get the blessing that all honorable people, try for, yet few, ever gain, tho never stop trying for it, is gods blessing, our hevenly Fa-thers when arested the first time i was puit in the prison hall, at the central police station, and as it was, after dinner hours, i roamed around the hall untill supper time, when the turn key ended in the supper for us all there were about 8 or 10 in the hall of prisoners, and the supper con-sisted of a pint cup full of black coffie 1/2 loaf of bak-ers bread, and a half pound of balana sausage for each one of the prisoners, i took my rations with the rest, and set down too enjoy it in a corner of the hall, on the hard stone floor, after eating what i required too sustain the iner man, i gave the rest too one of the other prisoners, and went up on the stairs too the uper platform that gives entrance, too the uper tier of sells, and sit down on the iron railing that is puit around the out edge of this plat-form too keep the prisoners from falling off too the floor below, enrout for their sells at knight, or comeing from them, when let out, in the morning by the turnkey and for-mes a fence about 3 and 1/2 ft high carried all around the platform and down too the lower floor by the stairs, form-ing a stair rail and a better place too sit on than the stone floor below, about or at 9 oclock the turnkey came in too lock us up for the knight, and i was asined a cell in the lower tier of sells, on the ground floor, there was not any thing too sleep on except, a hard plank, fastened too the wall, by iron braces, and about 3 feet from the floor with another just like it 3 ft higher up i took the lower bunk, for my bed took my pocket hankderchieff out brushed the dust and buggs off of it and puiling my coat off i turned it inside out, roled it up, and used it for a pillow i than layed down and, quietly waited for morning it was in the naborhood of 11 or 12 oclock at knight when i heard ---, outer door of the prison opened by the turnkey and a cou-ple of men come in too the prison hall, and shortly after their entrance the turnkey locked them up three or 4 cells from where i was lock up and nearer the door that leeds in two the turnkeys room, i cannot understand what kept me awacke for it was simply impossible for me too gett too sleep, and while lying there listening too the many slight sounds that, disturb the stilness of the knight, i was sud-denly, braught too a listening posision by the queer sound or noise ishuing from the cell in which the turnkey had licked the too night prowlers in, the sound seemed too me too bee made by the two men, using each other, in a man and wife fashion, though using their mouths in the same way and for the same perpose, that a married man uses his wife pri-vates because of them boath being men on the next morning, before breckfast i had the chance that i wanted, too see who they were and i sized them up in great shape the young-est one of the two was a fine looking young man in the naborhood of 25 or 26 years old smooth of face and slitely spare, of flesh light complected strait nose, not very promonant blue eyes light hair or verry light brown, dressed in dark cloaths with a light diabl overcoat the same kind and color the doctors wore around here a few years ago, price had one of them, he was a trifle taller than my self, and slim in build, i blieve that he was of english decent, the other wasan irish man, short, and hevvy in build with a red or slightly red complection bull face, slightly roman nose dark sanddey hair, downturndown collar and dark gray cloaths, all too geather he was a slick look-ing fellow, or man, of about 30 or 35 years of age, i walked toowards them in the hall they were near the watter closet, at the end of the hall farthest from the door and one of them was sitting down on the stone floor, while the other was standing up and as i aproached nearer too them, iover heard their convercesation, and this is the grist of it well iam a sun of a bitch who would think it of him, he looks all right, there is not a rong look they say he suck it is hard too believe, yet looks is sometimes deceiving and one cant believe all that he hears, well iam a son of a bitch its funney i cant understand it well i am a bastard, if i don't believe that this a gibe, and many other things that they said, i could not hear, but what made me listen and try too catch the drift of their convercesation, was that they appearantly were talking about my self tho not directly yet they looked strait at me but talked too one an other, and did not adress any remarks, directly too myself, i sised them up, as men who earn their living by, mis lead-ing the public, as reguards people carracter, getting them intoo trouble by falce reports reguarding thir honor and getting a shaire of what is made from having them arested that is lieing about people, and getting money, from po-liceman lawers, doctors, and sometimes from ones enemeys, for makeing business for profinions, and for getting trou-blesom people, or people that know the seccret wormkings, fo their buisness and consequancly, are a fraid of exposure yet there is another buisness that i have heard of, that there too men might have followed a lively hood, and i be-lieve did for close, it is an organization, formed in all of the big cittys, in the country or some of them, i was so informed that there was one in the city of toledo and one of these vile organization in the city of chicago, by one who lives there and knows, and is concidered very trooth-full and, with lots of expearance for his buisness takes him too every part of the city, and so has the chance of seeing and knowing, nearly every thing of importance that transpires in, his city his name is Christopher Duizeso an honest honorable reliable man, and i allso had pointed out too me, in the city of toledo, by persons, that seemes too know what they were talking about, some of the members, of this vile organization, the parttys name i will not devulge, unleass it becomes necesceary, the organization i am riteing about is too vile for human beeings too belong too, and the organization is composed of men and wimmen that have forsaken humanity, an dare out cast by the re-spectable, people, an din conscequance have joined the lower animals the organization goos by the name of the C; Suckers, and which organization, i have bin trying in every honorable way that i could, not too belong too, and with the human instincts so wounderfully strong in me, and with gods great asistance i will keep clear from so long as god letts me live, tho i know the power that is brought too beare against, one, in helpless confinement, and soon, some fall by its pressure, rather than sustaine their, honor as men and wimmen, yet its bestly coersions and viler princa-bles have not the slitest effect on my self, yet i know that the these people, by their abuse, that i receive from them, at the present time and the abuse that i have re-ceived in the past 5 or 6 years of my confinement, will never stop trying too make me one of them, and consce-quantly indirectly make me a C; Sucker if they succeed yet i have to grin and bare it, untill such times as i can gain my liberty and independence 11 years or more have past since i was first brought here as a patant from lucast county and from the city of toledo ohio, yet dureing all those long years, i have not cesed too try and try over again too get my discharge, and failed, but with all the failures, there is yet a small, glimmer in the dark clouds that hang over my head, andipuit my faith, in god, with the positive assurance of getting my liberty some day in the near future, and ask gods assistance too keep me alive and honorable untill that day doth come however as it was Mon-day morning that, i am now riteing about, and the too gen-tle men of the night before, who were making those strange noises, and the meaning of these noises, which i have here inscribed i will drop them now and let the purson, or the pursons who, gett this back and makes it public, judge if i inturpited those sounds right or, rong, as the too men, were talking and looking directly at me, i thought they were talking of me, and i went up too them looking them squairely in the face as i drew near, and as i came closte too them they sceeced too talk, and was silant, i turned on my heel, and walked too the door that openes intwo the turnkeys room, and as i got near the door, the turnkey opened it and called them the two men out and i saw them no more shortly after this i was called, intwo the turnkeys room, and from their taken too the county jail in the prison van, i had a hearing privately and givven my relice, this was the first time, i was arested, a few days follow-ing i was arested, and puit in jail, i had good quarters their, for jail quarters i was puit in the matrons room there was a stove and a fire in the stove a stool or chair an iron bed stead big enough for two people too sleep in and a watter closet connected with the room, i staid in it over night, the next morning i was brought down too the probate court room for trile, there was in the cort room, at the time i was brought in, of men the judge, the doctor whose name was kitchen, the clerk of corts, who was a laddy, if i am not mistaken a lawyear, the asistant deputy sherief who brought me there, my self, my oldest sister and my brother Nelson, i and my sister were talking toogeather, and i did not pay much attention too the others, the doctor examend me and found that, there was nothing the matter with me, oanly, that i was slightly nervus, so he informed me, then went too the judge, and had a convercesation with him, while they were talking my brother in law, came too the cort room door with another, little man and looked in they were looking at my self so i thought, and in some way had something too doo with my conviction, i would bee will-ing too take me oath, and i doo not think that i would bee purgering, for shortly after his apearance and disappear-ance, the judge spoke too me in this way, well william or will i have heard, some bad storries about you, some of them is, that you have a verry bad temper, and when angery you are liable too hurt some one, or doo something that you might bee sorry for in youre cooler, moments, i don't think that you are verry crazey my self but, youre temper might lead you too doo something that would cause great damage, and sorrow, when argery if you did not controle it and i guess you better go out there and learn too control youre temper and cool of awhile, but he first, as in the bare part of his convercesation directed too me, he asked me if i was crazey and i answered him that i was not and laught at him, i was committed, and braught out here where i was, puit in the m building in ward 2, in the second storrie from the ground, and in the east end of the building, when i first came here i weighed 204 or 5 pounds and was in the best of health, not even having a slight cold, it was in the spring of the year of 1891, and since where near the 20th; of april i doo not remember the exact time or day of the month as i did not keep a calendar or look at one that any one else had, nor did i read the newspaper, or had not look at one for more than a month, so, i can not be sup-posed too know the exact day of the month of my incarsera-tion in this toledo State Hospital, for Insaine, yet i claim too have never bin insaine, neather am i senil neather am i a bastard, neather am i a pauper, neather am i a drunkard, neather am i a quarrelsome, neather am i a thief, neather doo i cheat, neather doo i lie, i don't claim too bee any of the vile things that these people have bin trying too make of me, but doo claim too bee an honest, honorable, law abideing, american citican, whose oanly fault is his poverty, and his christian princeiples, and a decendant from one of the oldest famleys in this united states of america, and the first one of a long line of hon-orable ansestors that ever was incarserated in any lunitic asylum, or puit in confinement and held, unlawfully in any state institution is this united states, we were a long line of macanics, farmers, and soldiers and buisness men on my fathers side of our famley, and on my mothers side of our famley they were quakers, minsters, farmers buisness men, spuriturelist, clairvoyants and some of them gifted with what is second sight, the gift was allso my fathers, and i believe that it was through him posesing the gift of second sight, that he was made blind, or by his enemies, as these people have tried two blind me every way they could untill i have lost it and my eyesight is partly distroyed from their abuse, it was did by poisioning the blood, giv-ing me brown kettus, and thus efecting the nurves that leeds too the eyes and makeing me inhaile dry poisions at knight every breath that i draw, while a sleep, and satureating my system by the use of hipnotism, with poisions and alsoby poisioned watter that i drink every day, that i have bin here in this asylum, i have allso ate adultarated food, every scince i have bin in this institu-tion, the adultration was composed of chamber lye, all kinds of filth that comes from these people, that, aught too goo intwo the watter closet, and be caried off by the sewerage, yet is turned in too the watter pipes, and con-ducted too the dining building too cook food in or with different kinds of diseases from eating filthy food, if it was not for the acids, that they puit in the food at dif-ferent times along with vitrols, too salluvate the patatns and in this way carrie off the corruption from the systum, but they sometimes get too much of these acids and vitrols in their food for the patants, and there by are salivated too much, causing inturnal hemmerage, or bleeding inturnaly some times purfurated stumic, or sometimes lung complaint, kidney diseases or liver complaint, now it all savors of speculation in human life, and is too a curtain extant, for the diseases this treatment, breeds, holds one in ocnfine-ment, and shortens ones life thus is it seccret specula-tion, and the patants knowing this sceem too keep them-selves healthym, and doo by the use of hipnotism, takeing one person, who is in confinement, with them as a patant and by the use of a little mor acids puit intwo his or her food, make him or her an attraction, or a receiving bat-tery, and, then by the use of hipnotism the attraction in made too draw the fillthy poisions from the systems of the other patants, thus keeping the rest of the other patants fairly in good health, tho the one that they use for this buisness, by hipnotism, or the attraction, that is used too keep the others in the ward, healthy, is subject too all kinds of diseases, such as blood poision, conjestion of the lungs or stumic, blader complaint kidney complaint bron kettus, and one other complaint, that blood poisioning will produce, they or the manergers of the buisness generly keep 1 or 2 atractions in each ward, all over, or in every ward in the institution, i have heard that the attractions, were paid for their use yet i have never seen any one of them that could positively say that they received any thing for their abuse, i know i have not an di have bin held here for 11 years or more, and used for the purpose i have here men-tioned, i think they aught too bee paid for their use, as it shortens their lives and nessearily holds them in con-finement while, they are used it pauperizes them, and taints their honor, and sometimes is their compleete, dis-truction, i know that the laws of our countery dose not alow any buisness of the kind that i have mentioned here, and it one complained of this buisness, the law would con-nect the partys, doing the buisness of conspireicy, and penitenchery would bee their just punishment, but they say in order too not have too pay these people for their use as atractions and too make it appeair lawfull, they report that they are C. suckers, and try too make them that if they are not, and in many caces acomplish their horrable disigns so and finealy beet them out of every thing that goes too make an american sittycan, life home famley friends and what is dearer than all these combinde too him or her, liberty and honor, so have i bin used, and so have they bin trying too make me a C. Sucker, of me knight and day for near 6 long years from 3 to 5 times a knight they have made attempts too commit sodomy on my self while i was a sleep, and used hipnotism made me draw their poisions from their sustumn, in this, they were using me boath for too keep the patants healthy and deacent, and i have heard that they were making extra money by the use of sodomy on myself, at the raite of $5,00 dollars for each and every attempt, i was shown some of the money thus earned, by too different parttys, and i too save my honor from their hell-ish disigns had too sew too hankerchiefs toogeather and make a bed convering too tie over my head, and face, in this way keeping from commiting sodomy on me, i did this for the space of time of 3 years, or more untill my breath got so short, from conjustion of the lungs and bowls, through drawing these patants poisions diseases, and in-haleing poisions by these parttys using hipnotism on my self, i finealy had too take my head covering off, because i nearly smothered to death too or 3 times, so much so that i blead too the nose and moth, and find a substitute in the barkadeing of my door, after i had bin locked in my room at night, it kept them out of my room yet the used me worce than ever, by hipnotism, and by the use of a galvanic bat-trie on me after i had bin electrsised, thus making me a receiving battire on the same principle as wireless stille-gra i claime too be unlawfully held in confinement, for il-legial purposes, in one of our free state institutsions, for the sickly, insaine, and week minded, people of the state of ohio, too bee braught, too bee cured of some ail-ment and restored too citican ship when cured and that the law, requires their protection by those who the state hires, an officers care for them, while in confinement and not for the distruction of the patants, or the people, that are held in helpless, confinement, and that i know that this and other institutesions like it is suported by the tax payers of the state, so as i have bin held here il-legaly, from the first moment that i was braught here, and you have proved it by youre abuse of me, it would not be nessesisary for me too gett my discharge in order too leave this instituteion, from the superntandant or any officers of this instituteion, by law, i claime that i am, getting pauperized, and that the whole of these people are con-spireing against, my life, too too protect them selfs, from being murdered in their sleep, by hipnotism and using me in their stead, thus endangering my life, on by breeding dis-eases, through their use of me, and they are allso detur-mined too distroy my honor by sodomy, so allso too keep them self from having outrages committed on them, and too make it appeare that the ones that are dishonorable, are honorable, and thus by lying all their durt, and filth at my door they receive protection, by misleeding their supe-riors or slave holders and this is the main reason why i have had too bag my head with hankerchiefs and barkade my door at night after being locked in my room, there is an-other reason, or proof of their conspireacy against my life and honor, and that is that every one of these people that will doo what they are told too doo, eather good bad or in-differant, get credit for it and i have noticed that they used by that monopoly, and holding me in confinement for their use and for these catholic bennifit at the expence of my life, liberty, honor and the honor of my famley, i am being used as a foreign surff and so are all of these peo-ple, yet there is this difference, that i never doo a rong or inmoral act while these people will doo anything that comes too their mind, i am or was perfectly healthy or would bee with my liberty, they are unhealthy, i work for my living honestly, they never work, if possible i prove that this confinement is diseaseing me and shortening my life they or these people prove that their confinement, is their health, and thus i prove a conspireacy by you all, against my life honor and liberty, i ment when i started too rite this book too explaine every thing, about this buisness, and all too prove my sanity by it and have proved my sainity by it, yet cannot explaine any more about this seccret organization conected with this instituteion on acount of there not being any more paper, so i bid you a kindly good by, hopeing that the parttys that gett this book will, use it for the bennifit of any one that, is in the clutches of this afful caniball of the state of Ohio this sapping the life out of the poor people of this U,S, of A, and may you bee worthy of gods blessings

Wm, -----

Oh, how happy is the, man
That has chozen wisdoms ways
And has measured out his span
Too his God in prair and praise

Lucinda -----

My Grand Father, was a
very nice Man, and a
very nice Man was he
He drove a couple of Cats
to market one day and he
bought one pound of Tea

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